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When we assume we are a “person self” with an endless list of imposed labels, beliefs, and categories, there instantly comes a harsh judging of one’s self.  All of this is completely false and only exists in the self person’s mind.

When you believe in your false self, the false self comes into existence, but ONLY in your mind.  And ONLY because your awareness is allowed to believe it.  Do we stop to think about WHAT is allowing this?

“I am this religion.”  Instantly this portion of false self must adhere to a certain set of rules and judge all other false selves who are not “my” religion.  “I have this political leaning.”  Instantly this new, false, politicized self has a brand new set of worthless concerns to align itself with.  Instantly, it hates its non existent political opponents whom believe are opponents.

“I believe I am (whatever) type of person.”  “I’ve been told over and again I am (whatever) type of person.”  Instantly I must align and conform with how “everyone else” sees “me”.  It is all false and exists only in our minds.  How many ways can we find to torture our own lives?

Relax and lighten up, maybe.  The false self wants to be heavy, combative, and miserable.  It demands to be a wet blanket on top of your pure awareness.  The heaviness is not real, except in the false beliefs of your mind.

The combativeness arises only in the fakeness of “your” non unity.  Allow a light easiness of melting beliefs.  You are grasping to your self torture!  Ask, “do these things ONLY exist in “MY” mind?”  Gently look at it.  Watch for the combativeness to arise and keep watching it.  Does our darkness and shadow aspects reside here?  They can melt and heal at the same time.

Belief systems exist ONLY in human minds.  Countries exist ONLY in human minds.  Astronauts see no divisions around the planet.  Every category of every type of person in every language ONLY exists in the minds of people.  Why do we take divisions so seriously and similarities take a back seat?

Release this noise to help heal humanity through your own being.  It takes practice and courage.  At first, it is a harsh, possibly terrifying dive inside to dark realms we have not been aware of.  A lightness in unity arises when this is understood and accepted fully.  Give it a try, but it can take some time.  For “me” to realize and release this falseness has taken about six years.

This process is not an understanding of an idea.  It is a release of falseness after examining it with your awareness within your false self and its unending list of imposed labels and categories.

Please allow yourself to entertain the notion that this false you has been brought into being through sophisticated brainwashing and propaganda.  We had no defense against this as babies and kids.  That is the only reason it exists.  It is not truth.  Freedom, peace, and ease of being might be down this route of gentle self questioning.

If the gentleness becomes judged too harshly, look at your mind self more harshly, then.  It can become a dance of looking within.  Dreams of my shadow aspect exploded in number during this process.  Your dreams must be studied for meaning that only you can realize.

Do difficulties arise because groups of people believe they are a certain type of person, nationality or belief system?  Fuck yes.  These false things that only exist in groups of human minds lead to war, genocide, torture, rape, murder, hatreds, and the ability to allow every type of atrocity.

Harshness of being arises only FROM this mad false self.

How many ways can we divide ourselves and ourselves from those around us?  Infinitely, is the answer.  The two are directly related.  Why do you continue cutting?  The slicing equals suffering.  Your shards battle each other!

We can find endless differences to divide our own false senses of selves.  Another division, another false aspect we’ve heaped upon our truth of wholeness with all that is.  We can find infinite ways to believe that we are different from any other person.  We teach this stupidity to each other out of ignorance.

Ask yourself, “Has this been useful in the world?”  How many hundreds of millions have been killed because of our worthless, false divisions?  It doesn’t matter where the divisions have originated.  The important thing is that they are not true!

Ask yourself, “Has this been useful to me?”  Will you continue to slaughter your unified self with your never ending choppings you commit against yourself?  Slice off another piece of yourself that doesn’t exist and then believe it into existence.  Let it float around in your being, damaging everything it contacts.  Why do you continue this?  It is pointed out to you now.  YOU CAN JUST STOP.

Put the interio knife down.  Let your slices come back together.  The slices, shards, and pieces wish for this.  You are one being embedded in (and with) all that is.  You are not a separate anything or anyone.  It is impossible!

There is another way.  The opposite is to find similarities.  This is easier.  This makes more sense.  This we can work with.  This does not lead to personal misery, war, and genocide.  It leads away from material goods and money, which has been invented out of nothing.  Incinerate your differences.

Similarities include wanting to be left alone, easy access to housing and healthy food that will not hurt us for profit, among many other things.  Focus on these similarities and turn away from your divisive religions and individual nationalities.

No pride resides in these things because they only exist in the minds of people.  We have been taught religion and nationality since children.  It has only lead to civil war amongst us humans on our homeworld..  Focus on the unity of humanity, that has a nice ring to it.

Let the fire of inner looking melt your belief slices back together into a unified one among all of us “ones”.  You are the fractal one.  Look at your endless inner and outer differences.

Look at them and allow unity to flow back into your being, into your consciousness.  Just stop the division.  This is what the spiritual masters have been showing and telling us for millennia.  Maybe we should listen?  The world begs you.  All the people beg you.

You are not the infinitely carved up you.  You are all of us.  You are the world, solar system, galaxy, galactic supercluster, and multiverse.  We are all continuous.  All else is false.

Similarities are not enough.  The ultimate is to find a similarity, singular.  There is a mysterious similarity we all possess that we can focus upon.  We can focus on it and be unified.  We all share presence from where we experience everything in our lives.

We are always present.  You were always there for the events in your life.  It IS a present when we allow ourselves back to it.  We beg you, the world begs you: come back to the fold.  Believe in your unity.  It has never not been true!

When the focus upon the self disappears, we melt into the herenow.  It seems to make more sense when herenow is one word.

Space and time are embedded within each other, so when we reach the release of being completely here, we also reach the focus of being now.  Then we reach a point where it is effortless to maintain our new herenow.

This is because herenow is the only thing that makes sense.  It does not make sense to torture ourselves with worries about any future, nor the regrets of the past.  They don’t exist in the herenow.  It always was effortless.  We have just been brainwashed to believe that we must be stressed out about some untrue crap in the past or future.

This is not a retreat away from the past and future.  It is an embracing of the truth of herenow.  Nothing that we imagine about the future is likely to happen in exactly that way.

The past that we experienced is warped, distorted by our own judgements about everything having to do with it.  Our fake selves in time even worry about the “other” fake selves that were judging “us”.  We call them “other people”.  How insane is that?

It makes more sense to release the falseness of all this future and past garbage.  Make no mistake, it is ALL mental garbage.  It is worry energy that is wasted energy for all the interesting and useful things you can do herenow.

At a point in our spiritual journey, or truth seeking path, we start to feel the release into relief from this simple realization.  It is a relief of the fake self, past and future ego coming to be at rest in the herenow.

Mooji said it great when he suggested, “relaxing as awareness.”  The awareness of the herenow is the most important relaxation we can ever allow ourselves.

No vacation ever dreamed will give the lasting “sigh of great relief” that herenow, present, non self, awareness brings to the mind and body.  It is simple and open to every single person.

As this truth is allowed more often in our lives, the relief and healing expands into more easiness of being.  Release the guilt of being at ease!  Worry only damages and creates more worries.

Where does self judgement come from? Does it come from outside of you?  Is it “in the cloud”?

What inside of you is judging yourself? Stop and read that again slowly. Try to chase it and capture it. Say it now: “I am judging me for (enter thing from past here)”. What a stupid thing to say!

What is judging yourself? Is it real? “I am judging me because, because, because.” The falseness is the great inventor inside of you. Fakeness breeds more fakeness. False seeds grow endlessly.  It is the great replicator.  Shall you sit in judgement for eternity?

Now ask yourself this: What inside of me is judging me? Doesn’t your “self judge” ONLY reside within you? But, does it really? Look at your fake judge, then turn away from its control over your inner world.  This seems more reasonable.

There is a self inside of you that you believe into existence. It only exists in your beliefs of it. Your self judging itself is only in thoughts. Why chase the origin of thoughts? What shall be the chaser?

Can’t you think endlessly? Can’t you think about yourself in endless NEW details. Can’t you endlessly add components to this self? How maddening and torturous and heavy we can be to our falsely created selves. How cruel! Yet how fake. Realizing this non truth is the way to dissolve it.  Freedom waits in truth.

It is like our body, minds, and awareness create a mirage inside. From babies society, our parents, our friends, strangers, teachers, on and on, forces components of this false self onto us.  These are fragments of their falseness.  False self Frankensteins we are.  It is surprising we are not crushed completely by our first birthdays.

When young, we are unaware of this onslaught. How cruel a thing that has been heaped upon us! Like a pile of garbage it is poured over us, into us. Open wide! From the non existent fears and judgements of each around us, they cast it.

“You’re going to be this!” as one adult leans in with wretched breath and spews to the baby. The baby shrinks away, but is trapped in its bedding. “No, no, you’re going to do this!” The anti-garbage man brings more trash. He doesn’t take it away.

Their false self garbage becomes our false self garbage and we don’t even realize it. We CAN’T as babies. We must realize it now or continue on the path of self tortured non truths.  Babies are not born saying, “My umbilical is so fucking disgusting!”  “Look at my misshapen head!  I can’t go into public like this!”

We begin to grow and are shaped endlessly by the false beings within others that we encounter. They don’t know it either, yet this does not argue for their innocence in these crimes.

Ask yourself, “where did this endless set of wants, preferences, fears, hatreds come from?  Don’t turn away from it.  View it.

You are already free! Burn your garbage!

There are those that crave constant distraction. They go completely mad without an occupation of their self centered minds.  As soon as they walk into a room, they obsessively turn on the radio, TV, tablet, look at their phone, etc.

These are the slaves of culture propaganda and they are in the majority.  Propaganda does not have to be mind control through information.  It can also be a taught way of constantly acting, constantly being entertained.

The slaves are not capable of looking into their own minds and observing their thoughts in order to quiet them. This is not even a conceivable option.  It is not even seen as a problem by them!

Silently sitting and observing is the worst imaginable catastrophe for them, if they have any capability of imagination left at all.

If silence happens to arise around them, pointless and time wasting conversation is their next activity.  Out comes the phone, the tablet, the magazine, newspaper.  Glue your attention to the worthless TV!

These are the ones whose minds swim as they lie down for sleep. The constant distractions, conversations, and entertainments hopelessly bounce around in their slave minds.  A branching of tortured thoughts and judgements of all things and interactions cascades unstoppably like destructive lightning.

All of this is a whirling cesspool that creates the false self.  The false self has had these strong beliefs and judgements self imposed all day long.  The first step, and point to this post, is to look at yourself and see if this is true.  Does an immediate, strong rejection instantly come to the fore of and by “yourself”.

Silence and observing nature, not other slave humans is the cure.  Look at the beauty of nature.  There is no beauty in our propaganda.  There is no beauty in our beliefs and divisions.  The free one is able to silently and joyfully observe everything about them without letting the garbage poison them.

If this is practiced, at first the cacophony rages on.  It gets less and less as you keep turning away from it.  Inner peace seems a better goal than constant entertainment.

Awakening is not climbing a ladder.

Awakening is having your not trueness dissolved..

It may be a violent tearing asunder.

It may be a gentle evaporation.

To each false one their own.

A journey completed is a place after the path.

The path was false, too.  Look back to no path and laugh.

Open, release, empty, float, stop, dissolve, end, quit, melt, evaporate, explode.

Choose a way that your path never was!

When the you splits apart in reason, you realize that this you that you believe yourself to be is composed of all these facets that never were.

Perhaps along “your” awakening process, all these false categories or labels fall away from the false you that you believe yourself to be.

It is a horrible debacle for the ego to fall into the ocean of all that is without the knowledge of being able to swim and without any type of floating device., nor compass of where the fuck you are.


This was one of those wacky dreams that take place in many locations.  It’s one of those where it seems like I am teleporting around a similar looking environment coming upon radically different scenes.

Dec 16, 2014,

The environment is a dry, lightly forested / desert type of area.  I had the impression that it was around Santa Margarita Lake, near where I live in California.  I was hiking and jogging a bit on a trail.  I see a huge guy, not well defined, on the left of the path.  He bursts into my peripheral vision.

I stop short as he hurls a basketball sized rock at me with incredible speed.  It misses my head by inches.  I retreat as more are hurled.  I see a woman jogging towards me along the trail.  I warn her of the threat ahead.

She slows, then disappears, sort of fading away.  I find that I have super speed to get away from the rock thrower.  I turn down a hill into a sparse redwood and pine forest.  I see other people taking cover there.

I am sure that I have outrun the rock thrower, but some start raining down among the trees, just missing us by feet.  It had the feeling of mortars coming in.  There was no fear in this scene, just annoyance, as if in a video game.

All of a sudden, the rock thrower shows up close to us.  I try my hand at throwing rocks, but only one is a threat to him.  Of course, I then befriend the rock thrower in a quick truce.  We decide to go on a road trip down a desert road.  Our first thing we come upon is a car accident scene that is fenced off with a white plastic fence.

There is one overturned car and a little fire.  I jump out to see if there are any injuries I can take care of.  A pathetic weasel of a security guard wielding his sad authority does not allow me into the accident, though I explain that I can help and know how to help.  (I was a Navy Hospital Corpsman for eight years.)

I go around to the back of the square fencing.  There is a group of women and kids huddled in the corner.  I ask them if anyone is hurt.  They say “no” all together.  I come back around to the front and the weasel gate guard confronts me.  He is carrying one crutch which I take away from him and beat him over the head with it.

I only swing a couple of times and mildly wound him.  It was just a small punishment since everyone was OK!  I go into a building on the side of the road.  For no reason, me and the rock thrower decide to cause some destruction.

We break apart a few things and light a little bomb.  It felt like there was a timer counting down.  We run out to a van (kind of like a small FedEx delivery van) and drive like hell.

I woke up with a shake of my head, saying, “how dumb”.

There used to be a me that hated.  There used to be a me that divided everything apart.  It’s the same thing.  There used to be a me that gave itself labels.  It has faded away for the most part.  It did not go without a war within.  There was no side that won.  Only the peace that was struck is important.

It didn’t realize that the labels only existed in a false personal mind.  How can the free “no me” teach those that start from a false self?  The striving to teach fades away as it was a part of the false self.  Is this a teaching too?

A false teacher self, is there nothing to teach?  Perhaps the pointing to our false assumptions is a teaching.  As we learn, we release our own falseness.  This is why it is sometimes referred to as ego death.  The “not me” can only wish!  What is wishing, though?

An awake one looks at its own labels and watches them melt away as soon as they appear within.  They are not hated, simply seen as not being important because of their falseness.  The self labeling becomes absurdity on top of false absurdity.  Is the false me frustrated?  Is this the last of the false me?

There is no me to strive for answers any longer.  Only these ramblings occur.  Only an awareness and interaction with the now exist.  It is clear that this new now awareness was always the only thing going on.

Is there a point?  Does a point not smack of an obsession with a future outcome?

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